Last Thursday, Ben and I headed out toward California. I was beyond ready to escape Rexburg for a weekend. I get claustrophobic here in Idaho, to be quite honest. I have talked previously about my battle with my mental health and because of my anxious tendencies the long, dark, bitter-cold winter has been tough. Take your vitamin D, folks. You're sadder than you think. Therefore, I was ready for the sun, and thankfully the 70-degree weather stuck around for me while we were there.
Ben and I came into California at about 1 AM, 2 AM our time. I had a terrible cold and had drugged myself for most of the ride and had been taking naps while Ben drove, but we all know how useless car-sleep really is. We had tried to stop in Reno so he could use the restroom, but both places we stopped had some weird creepy dudes and I didn't want him to leave me in the car alone. So we had just barely crossed the California border when I saw a sign for a gas station and suggested we stop there. We were getting ready to exit in about a quarter mile when it suddenly felt that we hit some rough pavement. It took a few concerned but exhausted seconds to realise the front tire on the driver's side had popped.
Tender mercy #1: we were right at the exit we had already planned on taking, so we were able to pull off and deal with the situation safely away from freeway traffic.
We threw all the stuff in the trunk onto the back seat (where I had carefully made sure nothing was squashing the precious cargo, my wedding dress in its bag) and dug out the spare tire. It was dark, and the lug nuts were on snug, and the car jack was hard to crank up high enough, but my handsome strapping soon-to-be husband got the old tire off and the spare on with little issue.
We drove nice and slow for a few miles before Ben broke the news that he was officially like a bike: two tired (to drive). I got to spend the next 2 hours fighting off my own sleep and going 40 miles per hour down the mountain. It takes a huge amount of effort to not exceed 40 miles per hour on I-80 West coming down the Sierras. We finally got to Auburn at about 3 AM, and my mom and Ben's dad could finally go to bed knowing we were safe.
The next morning, we see how amazing it really was that we got home: all of my tires were flat (explaining the tire popping; Rexburg is at a significantly higher altitude and lower temperature) and the spare was REALLY FLAT. Like, really flat. Really really really flat.
Tender mercy #2: the spare lasted me all the way down the mountain in the lonely, cold, dark, exhausted driving atmosphere I had to deal with.
Whenever I travel, I make a point to say a prayer before we go. It's something my dad always did, and I'm sure it's something most religious people do. But we were dumb kids who didn't realize we should check the tire pressure (Ben even thought about it and forgot) and we just wanted to get out to California so we could see our parents and I could have my bridal shower. Even in our sillyness, Heavenly Father answered our prayers that (a) if something did happen to us, we'd be able to deal with it and (b) our spare would last us all the way home and no other tires would bust.
We are all dumb kids just trying to get by. After my weekend of sickness and then giving Ben the death cold, I slept 4.5 hours Sunday night and drove the whole way home on Monday, in the car for 12 hours. This week, I've had to fight to catch up and recover from forgetting an entire project and understand linear algebra (?????) and prepare for my midterm exams and take care of Ben and it just about killed me. Thankfully, in ways I recognized but mostly ways I didn't until I thought about it later, I was carried through this week by the wonderful power of the Atonement of Jesus Christ.
Everything I have felt and experienced was already felt and experienced by a perfect Savior. Every trial, every stomachache from stress and worry, every sleepless night, every unintentional class-time nap, every struggle, and every disappointment has been felt an incredible amount of times over by this perfect brother and friend. There are so many times when He carries me through the things I know I can't handle. I wrote a post about trials recently, and I feel it is again relevant that sometimes we are most definitely given more than we can handle. Sometimes our tires pop at 1 AM after we've been sick and driving for hours and hours already. That's why the Atonement is so relevant. That's the reason Christ suffered in the Garden of Gethsemane. He heals our sins, and he takes upon us our issues, and someday, He will gather all of us and heal us from all of our infirmities, just as He did when He visited His people in the Americas (3 Nephi 17). I look forward to that day when I will see Him. I do not expect that I will be able to do anything other than fall at His feet and wash them with my tears. I will thank Him for every tire miracle and every sleepless night and every sacrifice I had to make knowing that He had sacrificed it all, "that he may know according to the flesh how to succor his people according to their infirmities".
|BEHOLD. I drove on this for 80-90 miles.|